This morning, I was in front of the mirror, drying up my face, I look into the mirror, I look straight into my eyes and again … the same question arises in mind …

Is this me ? like Really ?

Sometimes I feel like all my life is nothing different than a simulation. I wanted to verify if my life has been a simulation.

I stopped my movements. Kind of tried to go against what my mind asked me to do. I wanted to comb but I didn’t …trying to disturb my own mindset. But was I really doing that? Was I really disturbing the simulation? or I was supposed to behave that way?

Sometimes I lose bounding of my own self with me. I see someone zooming out .. from the mirror to me, to the door at the back, to my house, to lane no 2, to the traffic signal near my house, to Pune, to the Himalayan hills with a train passing by, to the Earth, to the Galaxy …

and there I see some people with Tablet in their hand, with this whole world revolving on some plate in their world .. and they control us all … !!!

What if those guys are running us in a simulation?

What if it’s a business that they run in which they create each one of us in their labs and they test us in this one of their worlds. Trying to simulate us with a story in which each one of us has a role, a purpose…

They are seeing us, they are monitoring each of our activities …

Think of this … Look at the people around you. Doesn’t it all look like that? Why did this person around me say something to me? Why did he laugh? What if we do some mistakes along the way, we die and then they take our soles back and flash some other character into us and boom we are sent here again within the womb of some mother, with a different role to play … is it what we call rebirth?

The way purging of memories currently really works for our computer systems is that all the files we delete are actually never deleted, those are just marked as useless and that memory is shown as empty to the operating system even though that file actually is there …until a new file comes, there is no physical memory available and then operating system looks for files that are marked as useless and then it takes on of its blocks and overwrites current file in place of older one.

Why am I saying this all?

This, on the other hand, means that If I always keep enough memory available for new files, the operating system will never have to look for useless marked files … and all those useless marked files still could be read … this is how we are able to recover deleted files .. the software that recovers files simply reads files that are marked as useless and shows to you .. you click recover button and boom, their ‘useless’ tag is removed and those files are back to life …

When you make mistakes and when you die, they purge your current life, flash another program in which you are not a cab driver anymore, you have a new role, you are being born into a rich family and you are programmed to be a billionaire.

Is this why I sometimes think that this piece of 5-10 seconds has happened before? Is it me accessing my previous ‘useless’ tagged files by mistake? Is it me accessing my previous build?

I see those guys creating humans and fine-tuning our behaviors. Like one of our humans is sitting on a chair with an empty glass and a jar full of water and someone from them is monitoring him. He flashes a code and instructs to pour water into the glass, this human picks up the jar and the glass and tries to pour it and messes up, the coder adjusts parameters and now the water is perfectly being poured in the glass …

In another cabin, there’s a lion learning to catch a deer…in another one, human learning to get up, balance himself, some trees being developed …

and then they finalize the code and flash into one of us and that code runs into us for a lifetime?

and we !!! We feel awesome when our code runs? like really? Do we even know why we are here?

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Nooooo! don’t go away …  take a look at your hands, take control over your breathing, keep staring at what you are looking at … Nooooo! This isn’t real …

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I don’t wanna think on this .. Leave .. let it be a simulation !!!