The past…

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I don’t mean my past was bad but as I grow on, I start realizing how my past has been shaping my future.Things, moments which felt offensive, happy, right, wrong those days, now I realize why those were correct to shape my better future…

I remember those days, where me being silent, my friends used to tease me and was okay for me because I thought those were my friends…

I remember those days when I used to get up early in the morning and I had to ignite “Chullah” and I used to literally cry thinking that its too bad for me to get up so early in the morning just to ignite that Chullah which was too hard for me …

I remember those days where I used to ask papa for the class fees and he used to write on note for my class teacher regretting about delay to pay the fees and asking him permission to let me sit in the class just because he didn’t had money right then and he could only pay it after getting his salary…

I do remember how I used to find answer for the question about why my parents remain so silent in the home and hardly talk to each other and why my mom used to cry at times just because they both quarreled on the topic of lack of money and thus lack of kitchen ingredients at home…

After these many days, now i realize true faces of people which at times I thought are my best buddies…

Every time I think of these things in the past and my current situation, now I think that all those things my parents did for me, all those things which happened to me, the way people behaved fake, the way relatives behaved, all those happenings had a purpose…

I know I’m not the only one in the world to face these things, there are lot more people struggling harder than what I had in the past but you know, everyone has story and their own understandings of it as per their nature and stuff…

leave..I don’t wanna think anymore about it ….

Those difficulties in my past were for preparing me to study hard and make a person I am today. I’m happy that although I’m not the richest man on the planet and I don’t even want to be, I’m one of those satisfied souls in the world who have great family, their own virtual people in their own world and life is going really well…

Even though there are days when I wish I could have changed some things that happened in the past, there’s a reason the rear view mirror is so small and the windshield is so big, where your’re headed is much more important than hat you’ve left behind…

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